Thursday, August 7, 2008

Test of Friendship

Hi to one and all!

This morning when I woke up, I did my Quiet Time. I was reading Songs of Songs Chapter 2. Anyway, this verse spoke to me...

Songs of Songs 2:2 "Like a lily among the thorns is my darling among the young women." And so it spoke to me about displaying Christ likeness in the world of sin. And so I did my research.

Thorns: speak of sin. In Heb 6:8, thorns and thistles (sins) is worthless and is in danger of being cursed.

In the verse, Jesus affirms her as she is seeking purity while living in a world of sin. If you notice, Songs of Songs is about, 'He' who is 'Jesus/Groom', 'She' who is 'a Shulamite woman/Bride' and 'Daughters of Jerusalem' are 'Lovers of the Jesus (don't possess as great intimacy as the bride).' Well, that's not my point.

You see, as I began to seek the Lord, He spoke to me about certain things which I said yesterday and it was not very pleasing to Him. I said something about someone behind her back and it was just wrong. Even though it was a slip of the tongue, it is still wrong.

Anyway, I messaged her this morning and I apologized to her. I was contemplating whether to message her or not as it would risk our friendship of falling apart and what on her would she think about me? Gosh... what will happen? Well, I decided to do what was right and apologize to her even though she doesn't know about it but I still apologized.

Doing what is right and risk losing our friendship? Sigh... I seriously feel like I'm walking on thin ice that may crack anytime. She still hasn't message me back but I'm hoping for her forgiveness. If she forgives good... If she doesn't, I believe she will eventually but I guess like Sam said, 'Choose to honour God first and He will honour you back.' This is really a test of friendship.

God, help me...

Love, BECKY

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