My Dream

Yesterday night I dreamt that Singapore was being bomb by some other country (not going to reveal here) and I was running. It felt so real.

The question that came to me was, "If I die tomorrow, will I be in Heaven?"

Sometimes I feel my life is not worthy to be with God. I have that doubts sometimes. Do you? Insecurity and fear just overwhelms me. There are times where I seriously feel so incompetent.

My encouragement to you guys to to work out your salvation. Don't just sit around and think that everything will be well tomorrow. What if you die tomorrow? What if Singapore does go to war tomorrow? Do we only call on God in times like these?

There is a call to live like Jesus is coming back tomorrow. There is a call to pray. Sense the urgency and sense the time. God is coming home sooner than we know.

Do You Know what I Know?

Yesterday, Pastor Wilfred was sharing about what Pastor Sony Ooi preached.

He talked about the "I know, I know, I know." It's amazing how much things we all know. We can tell stories from the bible because we have heard it before but can these stories be applied in our lives?

To translate head knowledge to the spiritual is never easy. I was just reflecting on Deuteronomy 6:5 "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength." Easier said than done. As I grow older by the year, more things to do, the things of these world seems to be more attractive. It is truly a struggle. There is no denying.

The song "This is My Desire" came to my mind. I remembered once Pastor Wilfred said it was hard for him to sing this song as when you sing, you don't sing for the sake of singing but because you mean the words. Now I struggle singing these words. We can easily sing how worthy, how wonderful or even for God to hear our now prayer but to truly desire and love Him with all your heart, mind, soul and strength? 

Is this all just head knowledge? I know that I should love God, I know that I should do this and do that. But are we truly doing it and mean what we say? Let's just spend sometime reflecting on this.

Anger

I got shot down by someone yesterday saying that I was bias to certain people in my committee, and that it's not a good characteristic of a leader. Upon hearing that, naturally some -ahem- unkind words flew out of my mouth.

3 seconds later, I just felt guilty and went back to my room and 'emo'.

In this situation, what do you think Jesus will do?

Psalm 103:8,9 says "The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever."

And this is something we can learn from Him. When we are being criticized, just remember we are normal human beings. It's not totally wrong to be angry, but to hold a grudge and say hurtful words- is just a sign of being quick-tempered and it's just foolish.

Anyway, I'm off to forgive and forget.

In the silence

When God does not speak, I get scared. Do you? I feel like there are times in my life where I'm in a desert. God does not speak, does not do a thing. Scary? Yeah, extremely coz I feel like He has taken His favour and His anointing away from me.

Maybe or most likely God is asking us to wait, not for an answer or for something to happen but just wait. In that waiting there is trust and in that trust there will be a deepening of relationship. I believe that God is asking us to view silence in a different way.

However frustrating or discouraging it may be or how quiet or depressing it can get, silence may be a privilege. It will be a time of learning and maturing in Christ as we learn to wait. A revelation.

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What does God want?

Often times, we cry to God in desperation but after we cry, we forget about God and live our lives like the problem has never happened before. Sometimes we even refuse to admit our need for God in our lives.

I believe that God wants from us more than anything is authentic, honest relationship. Our cries from our heart can initiate that kind of relationship and bring us to a new place of faith. We don't have to be in need to cry to God but make it a daily thing to just call upon His name, make it a cry of faith. Raw, honest faith.

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S&S wedding details

OKAYYYYY, for those of you who still don't know who S&S is... -_-|||

As mentioned in the 5 min meeting that we had today,

Auditorium ushers- 2 at the doors, 2 midway, 1 for the relatives

Joanne (i/c)

Janice

Rachel Giam

Ruth Leong

Jacqueline

First floor, MRT

Derek (i/c)

Dorothea

Nicole

Sam Leong

Brent (UMBRELLA I/C)

Ivan

Receptionists

Table 1 (Friends)- Diane (i/c), Angeline

Table 2 (Relatives)- Jolene

Table 3 (Parents)- Yan Ling, Ai Qi, Magdalene

PA

Eugene (i/c)

Chin Kiat

John

*Isa

Worship

JJB

Ruth

Debbie

Marcus

Clement

Ike

Flower petals placement for auditorium, and pasting/ arrangement of directional signs from MRT to auditorium

Edward

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Decor for lunch reception (tgt with the caterer)

Joanne

Edward

Lunch Reception

Eugene (i/c)

Diane

Jolene

Janice

Ai Qi

Sam Leong

oh forgot to put.

ATTIRE IS FORMAL. DUH. no need to be pink. but we'll find something that is TDY-ish to show we're ushers...

End of Year Exam Results

HAHAHAHHAHA.exams are over!!!!and yeah, results are also back.
I want to thank God for helping me in the exams(and of course the previous ones!)
English : B3
Chinese : F9 HAHAHAHA
Geography+Social studies : C6
Amaths : C6
Chemistry :B3 :)
E.Maths : A1 !!!!!! wooohooooo:):)
Biology : A2 !!!!!:):)
I actually failed my amaths,chemistry and biology during the mid year exams.
Thank God for all he has done :D